(my cousin's van after being targeted)
Kissing and waving
goodbye for like it’s your last time you see that person, this is what was
going on in Gaza. Sudden bombings were hitting certain targets of hamas; we
never expected that it will hit our beloved ones one day. I was staying at my
parent's house while my dear husband was working as a correspondent for a news channel.
When the Israeli attack on Gaza started to be serious, my husband's office recalled
him so he was forced to move to Gaza city where his office is, while I stayed
with my parents in another city, so he can cover everything happening easily, I
haven't seen him for 8 days
Bombings and missiles where thrown on civilian
houses trying to hit someone wanted for Israel, but they rarely got it right.
Civilians were the most targeted group. We were hearing bombings every second.
Bombings which shake our hearts as well as our houses, we got some windows
broken, and a door too!! The weather was not helpful at all; it was pretty cold
at night. I couldn't' imagine how people who lost their houses felt about
this!! I was staring at TV when it is possible, and praying to not hear bad
news about someone I know. One day one of our neighbors was forced to leave his
house with his wife and kids, and the normal known threat should be like a call
or a handbill, but that happened in a very different way. Israel targeted the
house with a drone’s rocket while the people where inside, so they immediately
ran away, after half an hour the house seemed to be like it never existed, it
was bombed with F16 rocket! At that day I realized that we were all goals! My
family and I were avoiding leaving the house after 6 pm and we never went
downstairs the building or opened the windows, we were all terrifying, all of
us kept praying to be just saved.
Till that day came. It was the day that
precedes the case fire. All of us were extremely happy; we were thinking that finally
this misery and killing will stop. We woke up at 6 o’clock on the sound of the phone
ringing. My mom kept silent like she knew what is going on. My dad picked up
the phone and answered, his face turned to red and I started to know that
someone has killed. My dad told us that three of my cousins were targeted in
their van while going to the farm and they might be killed. I started crying
and making Dua’a for them all to rest in peace.All my uncles and cousins went
to hospital to check on them. They found out that just two of my cousins were
killed and the third person is a family friend, all of them were shattered into
pieces. The scene was so painful for everyone who saw it, or even heard about it.
No one could even describe the state of their wives and children. Tamer has 3
kids and Amen has 4, I cried a lot, not just because I lost beloved ones , it
is so hard for a person to hear that someone who saw him once was killed, but also because they are people who i really know, who i share memories with; who means life for me and for many others!!
After the funeral, I got
a call from my husband telling me that the building where his office is was targeted,
and that building contains many other news agencies too. That was a shock for me.
I got terrified!! A million thought came to my mind in a second. What is going
to happen with my husband and if I am going to see him again?! I was praying
for the day of cease fire to come so I can see him, I was thinking if I lost
all my beloved ones how can I deal with this disaster for the rest of my life?!
I know that Allah is with people who are patient, I prayed for Allah to save us
all. I was watching news and seeing children who have been murdered in this
attack, more than 30 children were killed!! And more than 16 women! What an
attack!!! I am still wondering why was that happening? for what! Why every
Knesset election we have
to pay the price?!!
Cease fire finally!!!
That was my status on Facebook when I saw my husband standing in front of me!
When they declared the cease fire, my husband immediately came from Gaza city
to see me. I will never forget how I cried while hugging him. I didn't know why
I cried? Is that because I missed him or because now i'm sure that he is alive! I think it’s
both.
Two days later I started
going to school again, I saw my friends and I was checking that everybody is
safe, all of my friends are from different areas of Gaza strip, they were
telling me so sad stories about their beloved ones too.
That attack will not be a
memory ever, because we are living it everyday, we are living with the idea of
losing people who are friends, family, colleagues, every second! It will never
be a memory.but the big question that will still in mind forever ;why our lives are so cheap compared to the Israelis?!
